The Minds Eye...

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Turmoil

Rain pours down,

 Washing over my broken body,

Cleansing, erasing the pain in my heart.

 Words written-

Tears that burn-

 The smile wiped from my face.

Thoughts on a collision course,

 My soul is wrung,

A wet towel used.

A screaming voice inside my mind,

 Darkness swallows hope,

I dive into the sea-

 To swim with dolphins,

To play among the reefs-

Make your way to heaven,

 To meet an angel,

To find love-

Like a cave my soul,

 Where darkness shrouds,

Shadows merge and become one.

This anguish like tides,

 One after another

No end.

Dappled sunlight through dense foliage,

 Rays of hope-

Small beams of happiness,

 Flitting-

Never in one place for long.

As the wind moves the branches,

 Sad eyes look out onto this world,

Anger, black as night, void of stars.

Sandy Rayn

 7/10/01

Plea:

Screams in the night
 shatter my soul
 ever breath I take costs it's toll
 pain within my mind
 at the sight of you
 causes my heart to burst
 all cause of you
 black fire
 brimstone in my nose
 the smell of hell surrounds me
 an I know I'm home
 the laughter outside
 doesn’t compare to that within
 you caused me great pain
 an did it with a grin
 I was you pupil
 who you taught so well
 I followed you faithfully
 to my own private hell
 if you had only beaten me
 with you hands
 not your mind
 I might have left you

 With in my lifetime
 but a fool I was
 that is sure
 for my bruises cannot be see
 except on my eternal soul
 I cried out to god
 but he only laughed
 for I was a fool in pain
 an you were my master
 your artful deception was true
 to the very end
you captured my soul
an left it dead
I will pay for eternity
for the pain of my needs
you gave me all
but the love I did need
bless me o lord
for I have many of sins
but the least of this is living with him
slap me beat me chain me to a pole
whim me beat me take out your toll
as long as at the end you set me free
not leave me here to die in this misery
I am yours
you made sure of that
with chains in my mind
like a worn down lab rat
plz plz PLZ set me free
to soar in the wind
to fly in the air
to feel the wind beneath me
to smell the cool crisp air
but no
NO
you say
I am your prisoner till the end of eternal days
help me help me Help me I plea
but the devil just laughs at a fool like me
I am nothing
but the slave in you control
when death finally takes me
you will still possess my soul
rape me kick me share me with your friends
then I can leave you
but for now
I am here
in my own private hell
a day to day mother
who all this is just swell
I beg for my freedom
I pray each day..
For you to hit me just once
so I can fly away....

Skuffy-written 5/3/03
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Ethan:

You were born the day I met you

 I saw your face and knew love

No cries heard, tiny lungs struggle for air

If only for a minute I held you, our bond was formed

And I cried

Taken from my arms gods in white coats

Tubes and wires run from you like snakes

A machine to feed you air

As you lay in your acrylic home

And I cried

Placed in my arms fingers touch new skin beneath wires

So strong! So strong you are as you fight for life!

So weak unable to drink of my breasts

My heart breaks for you

And I cry

Wires removed replaced by medications SO much medication

Your heart beats a heavy load yet you fight

You come home to my arms though not for long

Lie by your side, hold you close, and partake of your smell

And I cry

Gone from your home to this industrial place with gods in white coats

Fear rides in waves threatening to consume

Whispered words of encouragement, love and strength in your tiny ear

They take you, you sleep

And I cry

Waiting, long waiting torture black rimmed eyes burn

Awakened snakes again cover your frail body

Monitors beep and keep vigil day and night

Time passes, things are not as they seem

And I cry

Magick created healing begins

You struggle and fight surprising all

By your side I stand like a pillar beaten by waves

Home again to my arms

And I cry

Your smile, your laugh, you bring love

So beautiful, an angel who touches everyone ever met

A ray of sunshine that warms on a cold day

The essence of life on a tumultuous journey

And I cry

You can’t drink, your chest tucks

Your lungs struggle for air through pooled fluid

The dark and rain and wind lash

Once again snakes cover your body invading your mouth

And I cry

Day and night by your side

You hear the songs I sing and the strength in my voice

Your struggle continues your heart grows weary

Your lungs can't find air to breathe

And I cry

Days turned into weeks, weeks turned into months

Passing expectation you cling to this tiny thread of life

So strong, so brave, so small...

I try to be strong willing to die if you would live

And I cry

Harsh ringing, bright sun, a guiding rainbow your song plays

Rushing fast, fear coursing through my veins

Like the drugs that have you trapped in your mind

Your body grows weary broken

And I cry

Your chest raw, your body limp, heart beat slowing

My Angel boy in my arms our spirits merge then part

I scream forever inside tears falling on you

You gasp all breath gone angels come to take you home now you can fly...

And I cry

For my baby Ethan Bunny, mommy loves you forever...2-5-02

  Poems By Emily

  I've come to this strange land
with nothing but my man
Things change and we part
now all is torn apart
Nothing left for me to grasp
to my last hope, I clasp
my hands beginning to wear
a million pieces my heart did tear.

Now I sit here and stare
life becoming harder to bare
A single hand to me doth extend
attempting to make my heart un-bend
help me start again
before my life doth end
assist me in beginning again
for I do not wish my life to end...

Bleed
-----

Your gentle heart bleeds
denied of basic needs.
Supressing your love from all
hanging you head down the hall.
In search of relief from the pain
must escape the grasp of blame.
From the blade the blood drips.
Never again will I touch your lips.
Your pain has gone away,
but mine will now, forever stay.

Love's Glow
------------

Buildings tower over them as the smog lines the streets.
Danger around every corner, waiting to tackle their feats.
A pale light filters through the gray cover.
In her eyes a light reflects the vision of her lover.
Darkness has engulfed the world below.
Only one's love, can produce the glow.
Powerful enough to snuff the gray.
With his love, they float away.
Above the grim world below,
they engulf themselves, in love's warm glow.

Hypocrites

 Loves Rush -by Rayn

To fall asleep wrapped in your arms while stars keep watch like sentinels in the night...the moon is lit and hung in the tree tops with care and a blanket of stars covers the earth as your love covers me whole...into your eyes like windows I can see what lay beyond in the fields of vast emotion dried grasses parched in need of rain to fill them up and make them whole again. Sustaining nourishment as love quenches and fuels the fires within. Your touch is reminiscent of the sun, gentle waves of pleasant distraction warming my skin upon which your fingers brush leaving traces likes ripples on a pond behind to follow one after another after another...your breath a zephyr, feathers tingling my skin sending endless shivers as your words whisper in my ear like the sound of the wind in the eves on a still night...your smile like the sun brightens my day sending rays of happiness that cant be contained like a river rushing over a precip falling water cascades crashing below a momentous rush like your love swallowing me whole taking me down to depths unknown...a symbol of love a circle bound with no end like the ocean her tides never cease may this love grow stronger not crumble like a mountain sending itself hurling into the sea with the waves that never end and such is the lesson the mere existence of why we must never give up surely as the seasons turn and the rain falls and the sun shines bright warming earth tending it as a child to grow this nourishment for that which share as the air it breathes new life and new hope and sends out love to find its way into another’s arms to have and hold even as the subtraction of miles  draws them together in hope like the spring they shall not part but grow and form new life ...such is the hope of love....
Je t'aime... 

Written 2:30am Jan-2002

Forward note:

I wrote this in High School.
In my hometown when I was very young, I had this neighbor named Sam, and his wife Francis who were very old, but Sam and I were buddies. We never knew what one another were ever talking about, but we connected somehow.


As a very young girl,
I had very long curls.

My neighbor Sam watched me play,
And then one day he went away.

He came to this country long ago,
On a boat from Italy very slow.

Here he made a great life.
With his beautiful wife.

Sometimes I still see him sitting on his green chair,
On his porch with his thick white hair.

As a good neighbor and friend,
Right up to the end.

We all love and miss him so,
But one day, we too, must go.

Amy

 Which was made for us in heaven above

 You have my heart and you always will

 but he has you and my soul this kills

 we have our moments and time on the phone

 but time goes fast when we are alone

 you are my woman and this I know

 but your still his wife and our love grows

 I think about you and the flowers he brings

 and your time with him and other things

 I think about you driving to the store

with him being there and I walk the floor

 waiting for you to decide just when and how

 you will leave him and tell me its now

 Yes I wait for you with a heavy heart 

for it just rips my soul apart

 for every moment that you are not here

 I wait and worry and shed many a tear

 the nights are so long my bed still cold

 why cant you leave and with me grow old

 Walking the floors waiting for you

 this is the biggest part of what I do

 I wish you could know just how I feel

 when I think of you and him on your heels

 I wish you could stop those feelings inside

 the ones that wont let you be my bride

 I want you and love you need you so much

 come to me baby so I can feel your touch

 your kids are all grown your baby's a young man

 but I am left waiting till you understand

 love is so fleeting lets live while we can

 lets do it together a woman and man

 I love you so much I have not much choice

 for when I am with you or just hear your voice

 I feel so needed and loved by you

 its a wonderful feeling and you feel it too

 every tear I shed thinking about you with him

 is worth every moment to be with you again

 I set and I wait for the phone to ring

 knowing the joy your voice will bring

 when I am with you the world just seems right

 but the waiting is misery with long lonely nights

 our love is to special for it to be like this

 for when were together we both feel the bliss

 come to me baby and lets make this right

 come to me baby and make love tonight

 the choice is yours and make it you will

 but until that time I walk the floor still

Rob.

Time

the hands of time may pass us by

but life it never lies

the hurt of loves lost eye

the sounds of children’s cries

but time still moves on

 like the swans song flies

 in the early morning mist

.................

the lump upon our throats

as the tears swell upon our souls

in time

that's what makes us whole

 but time goes on

the endless silent ticking clock of time

we know

we choose to ignore

 till the clock of time is no more

 as we walk this road

unto the door

where time exists no more

or does it ?